Have you ever had someone do something for you, which you were so grateful for, that any words you could come up with to thank them just seemed to fall way short of conveying your gratitude? Well, that is where I am right now. You see, I have been the recipient of many wonderful gifts. Gifts that have pretty much saved my sanity and gave me a reason to keep on keening on.
Perhaps you read Bernie’s post, Yarn for a Cause, back in February? Well, I’m that blogging friend. Things were rapidly falling apart for me and I was on the precipice of a depression that would have sealed the deal for my family – no home, all of our possessions gone, etc. It seemed as if I were standing at my front door, watching a huge tornado heading directly for our home… and there was no Red Cross, no FEMA, and no smiling State Farm insurance agent waiting to help me out after the destruction had taken place. You can read about just what was (or, IS) going on HERE.)
Bernie was kind enough to ask me just what was going on, so I just let it go. I told her just about everything that was going on and she listened, er… read, it all (even the whiny parts!) She wrote back and, along with her words, she managed to fit in lots of hugs. We wrote back and forth a few times, with her asking questions and trying to think of some ways that I could pull myself out of this hole I was squickly sinking into. One thing that I’ve wanted for a long time was an Etsy shop. The thing is that you can’t just sign up and start selling stuff. You need to have materials from which to make the things you want to sell! And, that’s the one thing that had been stopping me for the couple of years I’ve been pining away for that shop. One morning, a couple of days later, I checked my emails and there was one from Bernie with the subject line: “Please Don’t Hate Me for This!” She’d written her Yarn for a Cause post and was afraid I’d be mad at her. While it was a shock, how could I have gotten angry over such a sweet gesture?
Within a mere TWO days of that post, I received the first of many boxes of yarn and other goodies from all over the country. I have been the lucky recipient of: new skeins of yarn, crochet hooks, knitting needles, pattern books & magazines, odds and ends balls of yarn, abandoned knitting/crocheting projects so I could reclaim the yarn, and fabrics. I even received chocolate! And, one wonderful person, who had been in a similar financial situation years ago, sent me something that she said she’d have loved to have gotten during her hard times – a Spa-in-a-Box, filled with all kinds of fancy girly stuff that I’d never even consider getting for myself even if I had money to spend. Additionally, from that one post, I’ve received a ton of support. Some people sent me notes and emails filled with support. Others shared Bernie’s post with their online circles of friends and family. And, though you may think I’m a little “woo-woo” for saying it, I can feel all of the positive thoughts sent my way from those who didn’t have the means to help in any other way.
So, now I’m an “Etsian” and have stuff to sell! I only wish that I had three more sets of hands – I have a zillion ideas, but can only work on one project at a time. Right now, there are only 12 items available for sale, but I have another 8 projects in different stages of doneness sitting around me (I like to have options!) Now, don’t think that I believe I’m going to magically pay the bills, rent, etc. with my little Etsy shop – I know better than that. BUT, this shop has given me the extra boost I needed to keep going. It can be so hard to even get out of bed in the morning when you know that today is going to be exactly the same as yesterday – filled with dread and devoid of hope.
All of those boxes, letters, emails, and good thoughts that I received contained more than yarn and words. They carried hope to me and that is why I am having such a hard time figuring out how to properly say “Thank You” to everyone. I wake up with a purpose now. I have a new day to look forward to. I can hold my head up high and proudly tell people that I have a business. I can stay home and take care of my family while I work. I have a creative outlet that doesn’t include crayons and play dough. And, most importantly, I have a bright light shining at me from the other end of the tunnel I’m traveling through, a light that I truly thought had been extinguished. I only hope that, someday, I’ll be in a position where I can help many other people in a similar way.
And so, since I cannot think of any other words to convey my gratefulness to everyone, “Thank You” will have to do for now.
Here is a link to Alicia’s Etsy shop.
Photo by: woodleywonderworks on Flickr